pain

i wish i could scream loud and cry so hard I've got this heavy paint that keep stopping my heart from beating i try by all means to numb the pain but it just won't get away, instead it becomes more and heavier i cry and cry hoping things will be better but they get worse the pain keep repeating the same words (suicide is the best way to heal)but i keep ignoring it i no longer recognize my self even in the mirror my reflection shows a stranger I'm tired