pain

mental, emotional pain it takes over my life. i sit in class, tears prickling at my eyes, throat closing in with every breath i take, lights too bright, people too loud. the pain is internal, i cant see it but i can feel it. i leave class, i need an escape. physical pain creeps into my mind. i'll stop someday, i think. i'll stop once i get better, once i stop hurting i say, because surely it'll stop soon. it has too. how much worse can it get? mental pain can't get much stronger than this. pain doesn't last forever. nothing ever lasts forever. but what if you've always felt pain? what if it has always been there?