outside writing

I am tired of starting my poems in the same way I am tired of writing that I am writing I really should be anywhere but here But this is where I am And this is how I feel I have written so many times I really should come up with something better The truth is I am just afraid Afraid of what I may be when it is all said and put a paper. Yes sometimes I am a knight slinking my sword at who may be lucky to understand my words And other times I am lost. Coming back to this place of un-knowing how to start .. well anything. I am tired too. I should be better.. already. I should be at already.. already