Outcast

I am an outcast. Always seen as different in others eyes. Ive always been treated differently then the others. I didnt have many friends through my school years, I always felt like they hated me to. I always sat alone in the school breaks, while everyone played together. I never seemed to be good enough for anyone. I became depressed as a 10 year old kid. while everyone was playing outside, I sat inside. I never got invited to birthday party's and when I did nobody noticed I was there. even at my own birthday party's everyone seemed to ignore me. When I was 11 I hated the way my body looked and how my brain worked. I started cutting myself on the places I hated the most, my arms, thighs and legs. I didnt want to go to school anymore, I had no reason to. I failed my classes and had no motivation left. I was bullied my whole life for being an outcast. I was done and attempted to kill myself. I layed in the hospital of the attempt failing, I was defestated. my family crying beside my hospital bed asking why I did it. I always kept everything to myself. the day I went back to school, kids didnt even care. they laughed at me for being different and they said I was just an attention seeker. I tried to fit in...