out of reach

friendship. what does it mean? in some cases they are like blood. maybe their fate intertwined with yours. inseparable. you connect like a switch with a light, a pen and paper, a foot and shoe, pb and j. everything connects to something, but why don't I connect to a person? faces I know but don't recognize. places I've been, but seem new. every time like deja vu. one sec, a jolt of hope. then it gets snuffed out. a friendship shouldn't be someone with a knife behind their back, a can that can be trashed after you use it. why can't I have a friendship like k and c? they always choose each other. always stick together. me and c were close till tugged the rope, and mine now just a damaged rope. k and c are inseparable.thats what happens when your born to be friends. is my string broken, not attached to another? no friend in my future? it's like a room with no light, no windows, no door. but if only I was like everyone else, if I wasn't shut in the dark. if I had at least one light, would I be happy? would I be more like a cloud then a rock. friendship. the one thing I want.