Our DC/Vans Epiphany

sitting here right next to you, but I feel so far away from you, thoughts run through my head wondering what you are thinking about right now, all while really wishing that I knew. I sit here writing this very piece of writing wondering which one of us will break the silence first, you or ? I am trying my best to be strong, keep a straight face and not to break down and cry. I glance your way while you are looking the other way, you also do the same towards me while I am busy writing. However, you seem to be acting like you're busy, because I have kept looking over towards you and the same line you are still busy typing I do not know why we are causing our own souls pain, when our souls are only at peace, if they are intertwined with each other, I am so miserable sitting here so close to you while cliently feeling this way. Knowing deep down that I just want to be so close to you, gazing into your eyes as always, saying everything all without even any words to say 1 purposely was not playing such deep music on purpose, it just happened to play, However, I did not change it because the music was so powerful that I personally got lost within it, as if I was catching myself starting to pray... (PT. 1)