|Is It Depression?|

Is it depression when I don't feel sad? when i go through life and it's not really bad but I can't imagine me fighting for that for what? what for? what do i do this for? for future? doesn't matter. for others? i ignore. for myself? i whether don't care or I see nothing in there my future i think of my job, money, a house unconsciously think it's not worth it because it's not mine i won't be there i won't be living anymore but i don't care i actually don't really care. ... is it depression when I don't feel sad. when i don't know how to empathize when i don't know if i'm feeling right if I'm feeling the right way and it's not burdensome to me when i don't really know when i never really knew how you're guilty, anxious, or insecure how to envy people or feel remorseful cause i don't know i've never been sad, never been angry i've always thought i'm healthy and happy but am i happy? am i empty? is it only the reaction my body is giving the reaction, forced out of the fact i'm living i don't know i don't care no one knows and they don't care is it depression when i don't know i'm feeling anything at all?