Open Wound

I knew you'd need support should the worst come to pass You taught us Church is Family and Family is Everything Your colors shone the facade more important I was just a child with my life in your hands Confused by your anger I withdrew my request This belittled him? I made him look a fool? Life out of control I'm dying I'm disappointing I'm used up Surgeons saved my life my demeanor changed Forever you'll blame my illness I'll let you believe this lie It's easier than you knowing It's easier to blame me If you knew what happened To hell with your pity My value was reflection of Family grasping at seams Outward more important than Inward It really never was about me Disappointing outcast, ostracized, tossed aside is easier for me to live with than telling you what he did Claiming pride of the woman I've become Behind my back you gossip how I threw my life away You hate how I turned out my ink, my smile, my spouse, my quirky sense of dress I'll be your scapegoat When last I tried to leave without saying goodbye you wanted a kiss goodnight And of course I obliged I hate holding this secret Maybe I'll tell it one day How your pride led to my demise Maybe they'll understand?