Only When Needed

How I long to look in the mirror To see some type of worth inwhats there Yet I only exist Between moments of enlightenment and despair My breath is fleeting My heart pounds with soul crushing agony Is it really possible to live And have nobody really acknowledge me? My words get lost in the drawn out mumblings of the crowd whenever I speak It's as though I had not spoken at all I close my eyes to open them again In the hopes that I awaken from this dream But there is no dreaming here.. There are only nightmares.. I reach out and trace my bloodied fingers upon a nearby wall It makes no difference to anyone I exist unseen, unheard and unnoticed I exist unloved, uncared for and hopeless They only notice me when they need me..