One-Sided Love

I always searched for love and knowledge, Knowledge came without asking favour, And sadly, love never came in my life, I was never able to taste it's flavour. What I got was eternal pain and sufferings, As I don't have the strength to confess, Maybe, because I am not any special, And don't want to bear the rejection's stress. It's like bearing the eternal flames of hell, It's like having everything but missing a part, It's like your body is in a fine condition, But your heart is being ripped apart. Loving one-sided is the most brutal torture, See your love everyday, having nothing to say. Seeing the beauty not being able to confess, Like this, I pray everyday to be my last day. Don't know why God gave me this torture, But I don't condemn him for my hesitation, I only ask him to free me from this suffering, And give me some strength for confession. But ,I know I can't live with her in this life, Maybe, I can die seeing her beautiful eyes. I don't ask for heaven or salvation, my god, I only want her to be with me at my demise.