One sided love

I love my little blue eyed boy, it's his presence I enjoy, I think what we had was real, I bought him for a three month deal. Now he sees me as a friend, I should have known better, than to delay the end. Was what I felt, all for nothing? Were all those moments way too rushing? I'm not sure if I want to know, not sure if I want to see, Is this how it's supposed to be? Outside's fine but inside's hit, rock bottom is the place I fit. I love him, more than I can love myself, I guess I'll put my heart on a shelf. Disappear into the madness, accept all the heartfelt sadness, crush all of my pointless hope, and try to find a way to cope. Grow a flower in my lungs, Remember our tangled tongues. Feel the warmth of his lips, Think about his funny tips. That's how things are ending, with memories forever blending...