Once I Smiled

There was a time in this world. In this Galaxy.The Universe. A day when life was a funny play It was Fun.It was Amazing. The days were so bright, Even the dark night. The stars shined, so much that you might just go blind I smiled . Smiled 'till my mouth ached. Nothing was ever fake. Until today. The day is a living nightmare, Hell on Earth. The same old thoughts speed around my head, Trauma, Torture, Terrifying Is there a way to go back in time? "don't be sad it's over,be happy that it happened" But why? I miss it so bad? I don't want to let that smile go. So much pain,too much crying. When can I ever be myself again. I'd rather die than live like this. But it's too painful,though, how much more painful can it get? Please take me back To the good days I want to stay in that phase The time where once I smiled.