On the way to Hell

One step forward means nothing, If there's no finish line. I wish there was something, To make me feel fine. I wish i could sit and cry, And let the feelings out. Instead, I stand here and lie, While my gut fills with doubt. While I stand, laugh, Smile and grin. Soon there will be a graph, My name scribbled over with sin. I'm not meant to be here, Because I can't give. I watch my name smear, As I wondered why I lived? Why did i stay so long, Why did I chuckle? Now it's time to move along, As from the tit of life, I no longer suckle. My heart beat slows, And my brain stops it function. The light begins to glow, As my life force and body end their junction I tried everything, And now it has worked. Why does it feel like a hotspring? Then my body is jerked. I'm on fire— Everything is burning. No heavenly choir, And my stomach is churning. I'm dead, Yes, i am gone. I have no thoughts in my head, As I see Lucifer and his spawns. I got my wish, Now I'm in hell. I won't be missed, And no one can pay my bail. — On the way to hell