Okay

I'm not exactly sure what's wrong how can one be ok and not okay at the same time I mean really shes not okay at all, but puts on the fake smile and pushes through the days while the past gets brought back up over and over and over why can't she escape? why can't she just forget what happened? night time she comes alive. not alive with passion and energy, but alive with her feelings and thoughts. she hates herself for what happened. she hates every inch of her body. she hates the way she can't ever escape her own mind, and how she cant ever just have one lick of peace with her life everything leads back to it. it's inescapable. so no, I don't know what's wrong. but I do know that she is, and isn't okay.