Oh why?

Each thought is a thread I cannot seem to untie, spider webs inside my mind is so super tight inside — What if this fails? What if I mess up again? What if tomorrow ends up being the worst day again? I chew on words I wished i never said, Hoping that day would make me forget about it. Why am i such an clumsy and an idiot person for not thinking of my words and actions? My heart beats fast like a glass suddenly broke into pieces, My breath gets caught like a wire that looks messy, Drowning in my own mind. It eats me so much in my sleep, my smile fades away, Turns my joy to ashes before I do— This endless life that runs a mile, Slowly burying me like an worthless person.