Obstacles

When i start to feel you getting close. I know its time to let things go. When I worry about what youre doing or who youre with When I want to be by your side and I start to think about what itd be like if you were in my life .... It's time id better stop .... Turn my back or pick a fight. ...get up and leave ... In the middle of the night. ...I dont want to feel .... What you'll to do me if I care . ..I dont want to cuddle .. I dont want to fuck . ... I dont want to be responsible for the things ill do to you . ..I dont want to know what your thinking Or you feel... ...Tired and im losing sleep ... I hate myself enough I dont want you next to me ...I dont need friends ... ... . I dont do love ... ... I dont take chances to see whats next .. I dont want to scrounge around to make things right . .. Ive got to let go ... I want to tell you that I need you. And that I want to keep you close. I want to tell you that I love you and that I dont want anybody else. That you make me happy. .... I want to see you smile ... I want to see you free. I want to be next to you ...but the closer you get the harder it is for me to breathe. ...I want to tell you everything ... I want to share my soul .. ..I just wont