not what we planned

You ruined my loveliness, but I let you, I don't do blame games but this is clear, But when you came when I was in the blue, And you made very special and dear, And although he was just a friend then, I knew we'd fall in love, just didn't know when. But I went ahead and entertained your needs, You made me feel loved with your deeds. And I didn't stop to question anything Coz how could I,and I felt something, Though I wasn't quite sure what it was, I went ahead and fed my lust Because although your water felt crass, It sure helped quench my thirst. Until he came, and there were tears in his eyes, And I didn't know what to do, so I strung up lies, And hoped they worked, and they did, Because he loved me, how could he let go? And so in my perfect lies I hid Day by day I watched it prepare to blow And when it was done, I was sure it was you. Because surely it wasn't me. You ruined my love life.