Not suicidal but....

I'm not suicidal, but sometimes... I yearn for the chaos in my mind to cease The weight becomes crushing, My world blurs as darkness envelops me My chest tightens, unable to breathe. I'm not suicidal, but sometimes... I feel lost, overwhelmed by challenges Courage fades, strength wanes Faith dwindles, leaving me cold My soul struggles to find its way. I'm not suicidal, but sometimes... Life's struggles become too much Darkness closes in, suffocating I'm consumed by the desire To escape, to bid farewell forever. I'm not suicidal, but sometimes... I don't want to live anymore The pain seems endless, the fight too long I question my strength, my will to carry on. I guess, at the end of the day, I'm not one of God's strongest soldiers I only try, I only pray To find solace, to face another day. I'm not suicidal but sometimes......