Not Okay

I am not gonna lie, sometimes I wish I could just disappear and never come back. I wish I could just run away from everyone. Everything makes me sad, and sometimes, I just want to disappear just so I could never feel anything. I realized that I am not okay all along, I am just moving with the flow of life. I am just trying to ignore the sadness that I feel inside. But at the end of the day, I still feel like dying with the sadness in my chest. Sadness keeps me up all night. It haunts me everywhere. It visits me when I'm alone and it follows me whenever I'm with people. I am not gonna lie, sometimes I feel so sick of it. It's hard to be okay. And the truth is, I feel like I'm not going to be okay.