Not my choice

For some time I felt so much real holding onto what makes my heart melt for that makes me feel some feel Trying to keep my head up but my heart is finding it hard to pump I'm suffocating but I hope i make it out because I'm trying it's hard to find one to catch you when you falling it's not my choice but if only I can I'd take out my voice to speak up but it's hard to trust since people can turn against you