Not moving on

A million things on my mind thoughts going a thousand miles per hour feeling like everything everyone in moving so fast while I'm barely walking not getting anywhere I thought was the one thought she was heaven turned out she was just a girl who played me slip and fall stay down can't slip again like that collecting dust Numb to the pain next day crying cause of the pain Having trouble breathing "Why'd I do that" on my mind at four in the morning losing my mind over some stupid thing I did around my friends I'm not ok but I'll say I am and you'll never know till its to later