NOT MEANT TO LIVE

Meaningless life is Wonder why it is A must to live that is Behind my smile My joy is far than a mile Without reason to smile But people might mind That's why it's hidden In deepest of my heart Loaded with deep hurt To believe God it's hard prayers weren't heard And I wonder why I had To believe I had All it takes to prosper Did all I could proper Yet am suffering proper With nothing to offer Since it's all over And just can't heal ever Kill me I say Hurt me I say My heart is broken My faith is broken My creator I now doubt For Him I did all I ought Truly do I deserve? Bad happenings I have? Agemates mock me Think they're better than me Unworthy they see me Due to delayed success Which I can't even seem to access A musician I am With no song released Nor even studio visited I just don't know Why am meant to no Success in life now Hurting I am With all reasons to be Life I hate With all reasons to hate Worthless I am A failure I am But not anymore now On the face of the earth Maajah Poetry -Ibmahtak Htur