not knowing what I mean to you

daily I question is it me you truly want you keep finding ways to stay away you always say it's for us yet I'm not knowing If you care at all and letting your brother talk at you like shit cause I'm near it's shows me I'm in important I'm not knowing If you are truly in it you keep justifying why you alway away and never trying to hold me down am I really in your thoughts do you even really love me yet you realther keep away then there and not knowing even Why my heart deeply loves you cause things well never changes other then my heart well break not knowing if I matter at all not knowing I'm wanted or needed you realther not see me at all is that love does this keep you man doing me thus way not knowing if I die would you even shed a tear or is duck tail still beat me through my death not knowing Is all I do. wishing you loved me or even miss me yet I'm post to be left behind for you and your brother to do what ever you want hope you happy you keep throwing your stones knowing my love is deep one day I won't be there for you to throw your stones cause I can't keep not knowing why I never meant anything to you and duck tail is never going to be after me cause I've heard this excess months now.