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what was iam thinking... sometimes nothing , but in another day , iam thinking not anymore in past .. realize that i have changed the living which i have done probably , i seem like before but in soul not me anymore just only me and ALLAH SWT but iam enjoy with my living now even still have must hard strunggle even alonely always come to my life but i found i peace in that i feel more closer to ALLAH SWT not only that ... many things , that i had learn ... that i never get in last life ... and i don't know why ... but i feel i can see the people in the deepest , even just meet them sometimes i need people to talk but i don't get one... i want ... the people can receive me the people that can understand me finally , one word that i can say must sink in alonely and talking with my soul and always keep the related with ALLAH SWT i feel , getting knowledge that you Will never means