Not gifted

I don't know if everyone I knew was born naturally intelligent- if that's even true, or if it all comes out of the blue. I thought their minds were gifted from God, and wondered where mine went, or if it was never found. I told myself maybe I'm not gifted like them, but I could become one through my own strength. So I fought, I burned, I stayed still- not feeling gifted, nor that I ever will.