NOT FULLY OVER

LISTENING TO EHOES AND WHISPERS IN SILENT CORNERS OF MY MIND ENDURING EMOTIONAL PAIN OF A USES DRUG THAT TAKES TIME TO HEAL LATE AT NIGHT GOING OUTSIDE FOR A SENCE OF EASE LOOKING AT THE DAZZLING BRIGHT STARS WATER DROPLETS FALLING FROM THE INNER CORNER OF MY EYES FEELING PITY TOWARDS MYSELF FOR BEING AT STUPID MORON CHASING FOOLISH BOYS PLAYING TAG DATING EACH ONE BY ONE ALWAYS GETTING HEARTBROKEN EVERY FEW MONTHS CONSISTENTLY TRYNA CHANGE WITH EVERY CHAPTER OF MY LIFE NEVER SUCCEEDED IN BECOMING THE BEST VERSION OF MYSELF FOREVER GETTING DOOMED BY TEENAGE FANTASIES RELENTLESSLY HIDING BEHIND THE BURIED LIES OF MY PAST NEVER KNOWING WHATS RIGHT OR WRONG THEY SPREADED DIRT ABOUT ME THAT WASN'T TRUE THEY BELIEVED RUMORS ABOUT ME ACCUSING ME TO BE THE BAD GUY YOUNG ME NEVER WANTING TO BREAK A SOUL OR CHEAT THUS GETTING CHEATED ON THRICE CONSTANTLY WONDERING WHY IM NEVER ENOUGH REFLECTING ON MY PAST I SCREWED UP MULTIPLE TIMES YET I ALWAYS GET BACK UP FEELING INSECURE ABOUT MYSELF WITH EVERY PASSING MOMENT OF MY EXISTENCE LOOKING AT MY REFLECTION IN THE MIRROR BEING DISGUSTED SEEING MYSELF CLASSMATES TAUNTING ME FOR MAKING AWFUL MISTAKES IN THE PAST CAUSING NIGHTMARES NEVER MOVING ON FIRST TIME .