Not Again Part 1

Please have mercy my lord. Do not torture me like this no more. Not again, please not again. For I dont know how much longer I can hold. A god of love and mercy, they say you are. A god of pain and dominance I fear you are. Mockery to mockery, slash to bash. Im hurt and bruised, my soul is blue from all the lost blood. You gave me this love, one that cares for the world. Where so many people, to me weigh as much as the world. Please oh lord spare me once more. Give me the relief I had with you once more. That is what you wish to hear is it not? For my broken and battered sould to shout out for your hold. No, nevermore. For a master who beats their slaves is no better than those who deciet the great. No, not once more. For you did not just break my heart, but etched into it a distrust you cannot cut out.