Normal ?

It sucks how I can't talk without being embarrassed of me Every thing I say Is stupid but that's just how I am and will always be I hate myself so much it's making me crazy and pathetic and guilty I wanna love myself or like myself or see myself as someone nice and pretty I wanna be normal so badly I want someone to tell me that it's okay to be like this To not tell me I have to change and tolerate my shit To see me as someone who they would love to spend time with To tell me I'm fine and nothing is wrong with me To say I'm normal But how can I find them The sound in my head Is making me sick It's choking me with a thread You ugly little shit Is what I hear everyday As if the world is kicking me away It wonders why do I stay So I draw myself with clay But I still stay and slay and spray the hate all around me I'm dying slowly and losing sanity I want someone to say I'm normal I need someone to say I'm normal