Normal

So many people aspire to be a normal person I never did until I was 16 Turns out I will never be treated like a human Because of things that are not my fault Apparently because I have to take medication I don’t deserve to be treated like a person But I do deserve to be treated like glass I want nothing more than to be loved By someone who treats me the same way I treat them But if that means not telling them  Anything about my past  So be it It was stupid to think  Someone could even think about me  And not care about my past Including anything that tore me apart  I would rather hide my scars  The ones I made myself Then to be looked at  like I’m broken Like I’m damaged  Because  I don't deserve that I don't deserve to be treated like crap  I realize I deserve to be happy  And anyone who says different doesn’t deserve me I’m not the little kid  Everyone can push around  Not anymore  I know my worth  And if no one else does  That’s fine  I'm used to being alone To standing alone To go through everything alone I didn't need a therapist To tell me that  I didn’t need medication To ‘fix’ me  Because I don’t need  To be fixed  I need to be loved And if no one can love me