nonchalant men

i dislike nonchalant men but i just realized that am nonchalant too. i hate texting first‚ i hate making a move cuz i know i will regret it soon‚ i give silent treatment when i'm mad‚ jealous‚ sad or not in the mood. i'm not scared of commitment but i'm scared of the consequences. i'm not scared of love‚ but i'm scared to get hurt‚ betray and ignore. once you made me jealous‚ i'll make you jealous twice. i hate mixed signals‚ it make me feel unwanted and unworthy. i want someone who only wants me‚ someone who only craves for my attention‚ someone who's a hundred and one percent sure of me. i'm an overthinker so i always need reassurance. lastly‚ i won't beg for someone to stay‚ if you choose to leave then leave. that made me realize that it's hard for me to seek love because of it.