nobody cares

why do I fall for illusions? fall for those I think will shine the way when there is no way. there is no path just perpetual isolation. pushed beneath irony tastes like blood biting back screams when I wake up biting back cries for help when hurt biting back truths best left unspoken biting back at myself opening up is a sham nobody cares if you can't sleep nobody cares if you are always afraid nobody cares if you are trying and failing nobody cares shut up, nobody cares, keep it to yourself just grow up, just let it go, just stop it's so easy, why can't you do it? it's so simple, why can't you understand? all you have to do is try, why don't you try? I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. stop being sorry, stop being sad, stop being pessimistic, stop being negative, stop being traumatized, stop being needy, stop being damaged, stop being here, stop being. ok.