no tears left to cry

when I say I have no tears left to cry ppl think it means I have thrown the pain away and healed myself but when I say i have no tears left to cry it means that the pain went so deep the wounds are so deep that even the divine intervention seems unable to heal them. now I only feel numbness and emptiness in my heart as the pain never left and the heart found a way to deal with it, not like it wanted to but it had to.. the heart has forgotten his beat but it's alright as now it doesn't feel anything anymore.. and i am happy about that as I won't be a crying mess anymore..