no one understands me

I've tried to be open, tried calling for help, none came to help, no one understands me. This school did nothing but bring me more mental issues like depression, suicide thought. what did it do you say? My self esteem drops every single time I sat my foot here. The lack of attention I get from my parents but I still quiet. Middle child could mean independence. Some might say I'm an attention seeker,yes i am because I want attention that my parents don't give . Yes I can be annoying, I annoy myself too by existing in this worldwide Sometimes I question my existence too , I'm broken inside so several that I want no one to Heal . Maybe suicide is the only solution for me