No love lost, No love found

it's unfortunate for me to say, that my life has seen a lot of shade I've been lost,abandoned,  betrayed and sometimes I've been afraid. I got shot at by someone who used to play at my house when we were little lost vision in my left eye and could've died in the hospital I've been inside a prison cell cuz I chose to shoot first without hesitation would you live in fear or get revenge when near, if it was you in that situation I've stayed out all night hustling, still not enough to pay these bills to reminisce about certain days, gives my spine an utter chill Despite my dark days,I kept my head up above water Fingers crossed that life would one day get better, until I lost my only daughter I left my sanity on the ground that day, drowning in the tears I wept to remove the one thing I felt grateful for isn't something I can accept It's like my memory is mean to me, and misery dictates my mood. Some days are better than most, but happiness can't be pursued. so excuse me if I'm rude and don't ask me why my face is frowned cuz ever since I can't remember there's been no love lost and no love found