no feelings

its hard to know feelings express them feel them when you have been broken so much its easier to not feel id like to believe my heart is pure and my innocence intact id be lying i am only so young but experience so much they say maturity starts when u pay taxes own a house have a job but i believe maturity comes in all age u just have to be mindful make good choices know what your doing i would say i can do all these things but i am broken having no feelings no affection to anyone how can i be mature when i am broken how can i make good decisions when i do not know what i am doing so much going on in my mind rethinking and overthinking how can i be so young and be stressing out about life already they all say secrets the reason why you ask so many questions the things i dont say the things that will get me in trouble the bad decisions.... i can not feel i have nothing i have lost everything but i can not feel no emotion therefore no expression