Nightmare

I am stuck in a nightmare. I can't get out of it. My life is gruesome. Sickening. Atrocious. I lose people I love. I gain people I hate. I'm afraid of the number on the scale. I'm afraid of the calories that should mean nothing to a thirteen year old girl. I see a monster in the mirror reflecting my body. I turn to the side just to sigh and cry. I strugge to take showers because I'm afraid to see my naked self. To see the scars, the skin, the fat, the pimples. Sometimes I wonder if people perceive me the same way I perceive myself. I wis I could get out of this body of mine. Maybe transfer to a better looking one. A thinner, Prettier, clearer one. One that's not like I'm stuck in a nightmare.