Nightmare

I hate sleeping. I hate it because I constantly have nightmares. Nightmares in which I die, or my friends or someone I admire. Its scary seeing someone die, even in your dreams. Nightmares with monsters and murderers. They try to eat me, kill me, torture me. Nightmares in which I am all alone, get excluded or my friends telling me that they hate me. When I wake up, I start to panic because they feel too real. I Text someone I love and trust to get affirmation. And if they answer really dry, my fear rises. Worst thing is, my nightmares are not only in my sleep. My thoughts tell me bad stuff all day and they wont stop at night.