Never Real

I look at you perform and know I have only been in my own dream...That part of my imagination I have only lived in all alone,no love belongs there..Never loved,only blood...What was I even thinking of? As if you would change your whole world for little ole me..Good grief..Talk about a psycho indeed..Maybe I am insane..Help I need .I see you in every man I see .I stoop so slow, right now I can't even breath...All these music. remixes tell me what I want to here not the melody of any clues that maybe this isn't another Lucid Dream make believe acting scene .Who am I to think I could be all you need .The stage,the money,the fans are all you wanted to marry,to love.I feel it's time to truly let go and allow love to comfort this broken heart of mine I see him yet see you .That's not fair to him Could I ever just see him .I have to remove myself yet again from your grip.What is this I thought I put you to flames..Instead I am here again feeling stupid and shame .Fuck the stupid games and fame..I'm not a toy and I don't need another ploy..Please let go of this soul as you hide.I will continue to give the Holy Spirit my crumble mind, my fears and pain going outside to vape my lungs away .I'm just a fool played.