NEVER MY FATHER

I feel myself rotting. i wake up sobbing. I dont know why, or even when. It just keeps replaying in my mind over and over again. Was it the sight of her once warm eyes turn cold? Stories to tell, now forever untold. Or was it when the paramedics took her away? Whatever the case, the scene is seared into my brain. If he loved her, why did he suffocate her? That being of which who radiates light and birth, Will never be my father for as long as im on this hellish earth.