Never known to the clouds

1. It was a brooding and very cold night as usual. But it didn't fluctuate my mind, like a storm didn't change the nature of the sky still reverting back to forced seclusion since years. I locked myself in a room of emotional numbness. It made me uncomfortable when I already knew I was confused about myself, my next coming chapters of life. What will it be about?! Due to constant anxiety and nervousness, I haven't been eating and sleeping properly. I don't know why I was thinking of it now? It's getting dark so early, and the thoughts arose; people dallied before me vanished without an explanation. However, I realised, that was a signal to me to bundle up from their life. Too many thoughts in my head concluded of two things: apologies for if I am the reason for someone's tears and gratitude for the betrayal and the backstabs. I was grateful for the closed one who cheated on me and suddenly disappeared one day. Once people flocked towards me, but now I am all alone. Hence, by the way, those breakups you put me through taught me how to glow up. My empty life was like I was left for dead.