never enough

My hug is never enough When there are no words to say And we take a step back too early Even tho I really want you to stay It was never enough But I gave everything I could You drained me, used me bc you knew if you asked me to give you something I Always would "Oh youre so kind" they thank so much but if I asked for something they never treated me as such I was never enough I learned after the third time I got replaced We had so many good memories ik But now all of em are just a haze Its blurry I wonder if you think about them Well I do... I constantly reread the notebook you gave But nothing has changed And I still think leaving you was really the best choice to make It was me chasing everyone so I wont feel alone But all I wanted just to feel safe like I found my home But you chose her and left me here all alone Why are you leaving me? I ask Immidietly start to distance myself everytime it happens Was it my fault? But what did I do? Ik I became so obsessive but Can I blame all the thing I ve been going through? I know thats not how it works Im an addict but it doesnt feel illegal All I wanted was someone to look for me in a room full of people