neutralisation...

she's like a drug, the more I consume the more it inflicts wider inner conflict. The addiction to her sweet voice, brings visceral pain inside. The consumption brings a boost of comfort and essentially a home to my heart, however when this is cut off; their is arrogant pain. The cut that always bleeds. The heart that always aches. The mind that always consumes these thoughts that are utterly unrealistic and the body that always sleeps gaining complete illusions of reality. Why did we ever intertwine? Is she the angel god sent to me, to rescue me? How is that so, if I am cutting, scratching, oozing to stop this feeling. 7 years, now when I leave how am I supposed to forget? Their is no medical cure as such to dwelve and heal such concentrated pain, the only cure is to become a teacher, form a bond to the point I get used to it and this emotion will completely reciprocate and dissolve, the concentration will be neutralised at once.