Narcissisim abuse

You never know how painful the abuse is until you suffer for a large amount of years then you feel so broken you have to cut that toxic friend out of your life. Then the "now what?" factor begins and you have to think about how many broken pieces from that toxic friendship you really have to just put back together and move on. You cannot keep dwelling in this hell called the past. All you need is healing and a lot of recovery and self-care. It takes a very long time but in years to come you deal with it and it gets so much easier. All you have to do is just stop obsessing over the pain. And find something that will bring just a bit of pleasure. And not social media, but just get lost in a good book drink some coffee or a calming tea and make sure to drink lots of water too. Maybe even some refreshing juice. And you can either embrace the silence or listen to some calming classical music even if "she" thought it was weird that you listen to it. But remember who gives a flying fuck what other people think anymore. Be the free-spirited bohemian you are and just live.