my worst fear

Smashed into pieces Crumbling too the floor Blood quickly running Heart shattered and torn Frantically stumbling My Mind all a haze You can say that I've seen Much better days Asking for closer But the question still remains What is it really That I've actually gained I have watched myself fall, with Nobody, I still try reaching out Just the weight of the world seems too keep pushing me down Standing on the edge I take a deep breathe I feel all my burdens getting heavier, and Start crushing my chest what can I do I'm tired of the pain, Dealing with the struggle, I feel so ashamed, Nothing too show For this life that I'm living Hoping that my kids Will somehow forgive me I'm trying my best But I'm still living through hell Trying to stay strong, So that nobody can tell Smile through the pain Laugh through the tears being a failure in there eyes is one of my Worst fears