My world

My world didn't end when you left. My life didn't crack and crumble when you Slapped me. My tears didn't pour when you yelled, And my heartbeat didn't falter when you Picked up the gun. My world ended when you stayed, My life cracked to two when you pulled me Into an embrace. My tears poured when you spoke the Gentle words I knew so fondly, And my heartbeat stopped when you Dropped the gun and kissed me. In those moments, I realized that the gentle You, was always so distant, that the gentle You terrified me more than anything else. More than your cruel words, your harsh Tones, and your heavy hands.