My unstable faith

I run to him, then drift away, Promising I'll stay, yet losing my way. Some days my prayers rise like fire and song, Other days I wonder where I belong. My heart is faithful, then suddenly weak, I know he's near, yet he's the last One I seek. I chase the world, I follow my pride, While his patient love waits by my side. I've missed quiet moments he gave to me, Ignored the paths he wanted me to see. Still, every morning his mercy remains, Falling like sunlight after the rain. When I am distant, he does not leave. When I am doubtful, he still believe. When I am broken, ashamed, and afraid, his grace covers every mistake I've made. I am inconsistent, changing like the tide, Yet his love stands firm; it does not hide. He remain faithful through every season, Loving me beyond every reason. I don't always understand his ways, And I don't always spend time in his gaze. Yet he keep blessing, protecting, and guiding me through, Showing a kindness I could never earn from him a way. And though my devotion may rise and fall, His love remains the strongest