My unreachable world

I love my familie. I love the world I live in. I love the day, the way the sun shines so brightly down on me. But there is a world, a different one at night. When everyone is sleeping and the birds are quiet. When the world is at peace. When the only thing I hear is the music blasting in my ears. Where I think differently than in the day. When I'm in my own little world. A world, my familie wouldn't understand. A world that keeps me company at night. It makes me happy. I enter different stories. I become someone else. I become who I actually wanna be. I should be happy with who and where I am now, but I'm longing for change. I'm longing for something different. I should follow my dreams, but what if my dreams should change? What if a part of me doesn't want to reach them? I want to stay with my familie. That's what I should do, but I can't. I can't live on like this. And every night, when my ears are filled with music and tears are running down my face, I realise, that my dream can't come true. My hopes must stay hidden. My world is unreachable.