My thought

Today I lost my thoughts of mind. Wake up in the morning and I look for a sign of hope. But my thoughts are overloaded with the place. Hopefully, things will start to get better in the days. Feeling some kind of way. Like a thunder hit my soul. No positive thought come my way. Only say of doubt. It takes me to a whole new level. Looking for something I can hold on to. Hiding behind my fear, so you can't see the pain in my heart. The joy you took from me is hiding behind all regard. So I have to act like I don't have a heart. Put my thoughts to the say. They have to be a spot in me for peace with myself. I hear your voice in my soul. Saying I have the last words. But my heart tells my mind. She can. But fear tells my mind she won't. Now I am certain that I'm feeling something. Maybe is an uncertain thing that will never be the same. Maybe they are right. Or I am the right one? I can't feel because I am numb. My mind and thought is gone. The only thing I can see right now is my thought.