My sweet destruction

Now I sleep wake up feeling like I haven't I know it's cause of you cause I still hear your voice saying I love you but you are not here anymore like a reminder I lost you when i just got you Now I wake up mad go to sleep sad and my dad is an asshole but you know that You told me not to cry just to make me cry you told me I could trust you then broke it Immediately You said I could have your love if I gave you mine so I poured all me in a cup just for you to pour it out like sour milk Some days all I feel is numb like nothing is real other days the pain is unbearable I don't want to keep going without you I can't survive like this I don't want to maybe that's why I keep that knife behind my bookshelf