my stupid heart

they always come back they always come in with the same smile same purpose but they swore they changed its hard not to believe them not to fall back to the sweet trap they set I always fell on let my self be led cause they tasted just like home they taste just how I wanted just how I used to be it made me believe darkness was the only thing in the world left for me I am not the only one hurting but I know most people see me and say she's over reacting over exaggerating maybe I am maybe I am Not parts of me ,bits that I don't like still wants them back but the other part seems to push them away every time thinking maybe its an attack another way to break and mold my stupid heart that trusts another way to guide and lead my stupid heart that seeks any type of love it can seize maybe its another way to prove to my stupid heart I would fall back ,touch down and stay there but I changed a version of bitter hatred is left of the girl I was my stupid heart chose defiance when someone gave me love my stupid heart screams it doesn't want to hurt again so my beautiful stupid heart built layers and layers of walls to hide from the awful world my stupid heart believed that it could save me